THIS CHAPTER CLOSES

I started this blog when I had started another new phase
in my life. This blog just seemed like the right thing to
do at that time and I needed it. There was a purpose and
meaning to it. The concept of a blog had a unique affinity
and relevance to that time. It made sense to me at that
time and it did things for me. I needed it to live my life
and make sense of things at that time.

I feel that the time has come for its natural death. I
seem to have forgotten what I was supposed to do here and
this has lost its meaning. I believe its time to stop as
it no longer makes sense in my scheme of things. I have
forgotten the purpose and I realize that I no longer need
it. It has been a very interesting experience. This blog
has affected my life and shaped other's as well. It was a
unique experience and entity that existed in its small way
and then after contributing whatever it had to offer in
the big matrix of reality it disappeared.

I feel a strange sorrow to bid farewell to this as it has
played a special role in my life. I feel like I'm parting
with a small part of me. Leaving it to drift away in the
virtual ocean, but I also feel that it is time. As I let
go of this blog I realize I let go of one phase of my
life. A phase that has had a profound affect on me and my
life. I will not forget that phase, this blog, the people
I found through it and the experience.

It has been awesome, and awesome is what describes every
little amazing thing in our lives.

I bid you all farewell. The story has ended, but it keeps
on going on...

BONDS SNAP!

I finally officially broke-up with H. I feel really low. I have felt so isolated for so long. It seems as if I've gotten used to it now. I don't feel like getting in to details of my reasons or circumstances. Who knows where life takes us? I wish it will take him where he wants and me where I want. It's not the end, its just our end. It will make sense someday.

And O how I would take and keep thee,
That we might both be one.

But how much do I really feel for you?
Enough to do what's best for you?
For in our present roles, I feel
Embracing would not be the right thing now to do.

O, how I would shun the thought!
But no matter what the pain...
Its the right thing!


Everything is so bad nowadays in every front for me. I'm trying to take all of this and I realize that it has been like this for 2 years now and has been progressively getting worse. I have reached my point of saturation and I am making some changes. I don't find the need to whine anymore here. I will only start blogging again when my life sorts out again, and that means adios to this blog for a long time.