DID I WRITE THOSE POSTS?

That's the question that popped in my mind as I was reading some of my previous posts and it has been a weird experience for me. First, it feels like centuries ago and then I feel as if I've changed so much. But the thing is that it has just been a few months! But the rate of change in my life is so accelarated that one month is equivalent to a year.

Second, I read in one post that I dream about Billy Zane and that i fantasize that he's posessive about me. Now, it just occurred to me that I should clear it up that eventhough in my fantasies I might like such stuff but I wouldn't like it in real life. I don't want someone who is insecure and posessive. Who would try to restrict my freedom or dominate me. When it comes to sexual fantasies I can have many crazy, freaky ones but that doesn't mean that I would want them acted out in real life.

Third, I wrote in another post that I think that I would be an awesome lover/boyfriend, but now I think that I wouldn't. I would probably not be that appealing or great. I thought that who ever would be my bf would be lucky and happy to have someone like me; I was full of crap! I don't know where that thought came from as I am always self-deprecating. Must have been a temporary high-esteem. It's just not true.