CLOUDS AND RAIN...LOVELY WEATHER!

RANDOM THOUGHTS:

1) Just when you think you are at a breaking point you surprise yourself and start anew again.

2) If you've been given $100 to buy groceries and you're happy that you will have enough money left after buying the essentials for those yummy snacks and candies; YOU ARE WRONG! Food is so god damn expensive here!

3) If sexy men and girls smile at you it is a good idea to smile back as well.

4) Apparently after sometime I actually start to see the beauty of continuous grey, cloudy, cold weather because I caught myself skipping cheerfully on the sidewalk today while chilly wind was blowing, there was a very slight drizzle and dark clouds were looming.
Actually, I was joyfully walking in a fast pace and then I unconsciously started skipping a bit. Then, I suddenly realized what I was doing and self-consciously looked around to see if anybody was looking and YES, a lady was looking at me. She gave me a big smile and a knowing look as if saying, "Yes, I saw you; it was cute though." I must have blushed. I walked forward but looked back and that lady smiled again and gave me a playful nod. I chuckled and went into the store.

5) I've decided that I will stop moping and crying and start trying to make my life in to something that is not so boring, depressing, unfulfilling and painful. I figured, 'If I can't do anything to change stuff then I should just change my attitude.' Make my life work for me. Yes, I'll have to deal with some more months of unadulterated agony but I better keep myself productive. As, from the last week or so I had spiraled into continuous moping and sadness. I used to go to these awesome places but never enjoyed it a bit. I kept on thinking, 'WHAT IF...'

6) I never cease to surprise myself. I WILL survive this one as well. And so will you.