A DAY...

There's so much work I have to do, so many stupid assignments and readings to complete. The weekend starts when the last class ends on Friday, and I decide to hang out with some friends from the last class for a while.

4:30 pm: We go to our cafeteria and get a bite, and discuss why Angelina Jolie has to make out with Britney Spears. I mean come on! Think about the publicity that will get! But Oh no! I have so much work to do, so I bid farewell to the dimwits from class and head to my room in the dorm.

5:00 pm: One look at my beloved laptop reminds me that I have to check my mail. I remind myself to quickly get this done and head for the library...

7:30 pm: Still online chatting, surfing and reading away. MSN is so addictive! Finally my roomie comes and detaches me from the seductive piece of technology. I don't know how but, like always, I end up hanging out at my neighbor's room.

9:30 pm: Friends night out!! WOOHOO! Eat out and drive aimlessly! Got in one of those long discussions about what we will do with our lives--the future. No one knows--wierd...is it our generation or have the youth always been this confused?

12:00 : Get that guitar out for a music fest!

2:00 am: Slumber

2:00 pm: Woke up! Fuck gotta get some work done, but wait I feel so horny!! Ok, Let's get this over with! Sexual fantasy starts...sexy strong hunky gym instuctor and me...work up a sweat! Shower and then lunch.

3:00 pm: Finally head to the sacred library.
Settle down and prepare to start working. Wait! I don't have a highlighter to mark important points that I will read. Shit! Run outside to the store to buy one. Run in to the very-fun girl who loves to talk about sex and willing to listen to my sexual thoughts. Start narrating my new thoughts about sex, love and guys with her. Always a pleasure!

5:00 pm: Finally heading back to the library with the highlighter in hand and ready to get down to some serious work! Start reading and then start feeling so damn sleepy. Can't hurt to put my head down and close my eyes for a bit, right?

7:30 pm: My cell rings and wakes me up. I run out of the library and answer the call. It's my friend, the gang is heading out for dinner...do I wanna join? Hell yea!

10:00 pm: Too tired to work! So get online and then watch sex and the city--still haven't seen some episodes.

12:00: Tensed and stressed up--will not be able to complete my work tomorrow.

IS THIS ALL THERE IS?

Koi to ho...

A whole academic year is almost completed. So many things, so many memories; just so much...

It was a blur; didn't even have time to think about my life and what was happening inside me. It has been a very productive year; made lots of new friends; got a job; good grades; good parties; good fun. But so many downs as well; so many moments of pain; so much stress and anxiety. And finally the undealt with issues, which hung like dark clouds engulfing everything I did. I need to see a therapist. The year has been overall been pretty good; I have grown and learned so damn much. I am overall a much happier person, but probably not any more stabler or healthier.

The summer holidays will start soon. I have a summer job lined up. I don't feel like working anymore; just very tired and want to do other stuff.

Ab na koi pas hae; phir bhi pyaas hae.