MY STATE OF EXISTENCE

Life...That's just it. It's happening all around me and it fascinates me. Life can and does beat the shit out of me but surviving that is what life is about. And this blog is about me, someone who doesn't fit any stereotype or label. There are alot of labels I posess Pakistani, Muslim, Young, Gay, Student but I don't want to fit in some pre-conceived notion of those labels. I maintain my individuality and this blog is the affirmation of my uniqueness.

Friday, September 09, 2005

CAFE` MOMENTS

Imagine the scene:

I'm gradually inducted in to a group and go chillin' and dining out with them and become pretty friendly. At the same time I'm introduced and fitted in to another group of people. I'm trying to manage two groups of friends. I think it's getting a little hectic spending about 2 hours a day with each and I need to do something, but I like both. So my ingenious self decides to bring 'em together! Huh? Ain't that a great idea? Huh? Huh? yea? NO!

The 1st group smses me and wants me to get together at the cafe`, as I run to the place the 2nd group somehow finds me and wants to head to the market. I try to excuse myself from the 2nd group's plan but they insist, so I try to sms excuses to the 1st group but they say I have to come cuz its someone's birthday. What do I do?

I tell the 2nd group to come to the cafe` with me to get a bite and then head to the shops later; they agree. At the cafe` I introduce the 1st group to the 2nd group and make it so that they all sit together at the table. Lo and behold! some of them knew each other. Well that isn't necessarily bad now is it? IT IS!

It turns out that some of them were from the same school and DESPISED each other behind each other's backs. So there I was hearing the polite, cold chatter and everyone is all uncomfortable and stiff. Whoops! What have I done! The 2nd group then decides to head for the market and some innocent newbie like me from the 1st group wants to come to. Now there's another chilly moment as the veteran warring 1st groupers and 2nd groupers make faces at the prospect of spending even more time trying to be polite to each other. The 2nd group makes excuses and decides to go and they're like, "Come on Bruce, let's go!" but the 1st groupers are also like, "Hey Bruce let's go!" and I'm like... AWKWARD! I tell the 1st group that I need to get something from the market urgently so I need to go with the 2nd group but I'll catch them later.

NOW the problem is:
1) Do I hang around with both and eventually end up making both bitter of me?
2) Which one do I chose, if I chose?

It has to be mentioned: the 1st group offers more chances of parties and the girls are really cute and there's a chance a guy is gay in this group. While the 2nd group has really nice, friendly people who have made very strong friendship overtures to me and includes a guy who lives in my dorms and so I need to be in good contact with him.

Adieu