THE RETURN OF THE...

There I was sitting peacefully studying commerce, when my cell comes to life. I nonchalantly check the screen to see who's calling and then I freeze for sometime with indecision. Yes--H. Should I pick it up or not? I remembered how many times I tried calling him and all those smses that didn't stir him at all, so I decided to not answer the call. The ringing finally stopped. Then he called again. CANCEL the call! Afterall it was all supposed to be over--everything. Then he called again, and I had to pick it up because I wanted to talk to him so much!

Apparently he had called in to apologise for his behavior. I didn't spare the chance to rub it in and make it lucidly clear how I had felt. But what more could I do anyway? I had already forgiven him, and I was actually pretty glad to hear from him again. I mean the thought that I would never talk to him again had been hell that evening when I realized that he will not answer my appeals. The only thing that pissed me off when he called was that I had to go through all of that for what? NOTHING! But it happens, people have emotional swings. Its just that I never expected him to have emotional swings, he just always seemed so calm and rational. I always felt that I was the one susceptible to sudden mood swings.

And then again the request of flying to his city to meet him and stuff. I really don't get the use of that proposal. All it represents to me is unneeded confusion. It just doesn't make any sense. If all I want is casual sex then I can surely get it here, no need of going any where else for that. So that only leaves attachment as the sole reason and that is essentially troublesome in a long-distance, rarely-meet situation. I have maintained that I want to keep contact and meet platonically if we happen to visit each other's cities. He doesn't seem to think that's a good idea or something. Anyway atleast its back to square one :-)

It's just so good to hear his voice though.